you keep me sane

2007-09-30T12:58:00.000-07:00

i decided i should try out LJ. but still, i'll miss this very old blog of mine. its has been my punchbag for the past 3 years. its gna be running cus i just dont have the heart to delete them.

the same old jo, with love (:

2007-09-29T10:30:00.000-07:00

YUPS, there you gooo!

RIPPED THIS OFF FROM CHRISTABEL'S BLOG!
heh, i know you wont mind dear cus you love us!
and i miss our dance days very badly ):
we should go dancing soon, right after your Os.
gather the whole dance group and we'll paint the town red!
and im still very sorry for having to scold you guys during dance practice but i was really,really URGHH. STRESSED! like how we never got the whole group to practice as one and all.but im glad we finally did it(: now i know, being teacher isnt easy. and i cant believe that was my ambition 10 years ago(now you see how human transforms and changes over the years) and i have tons of dreams then, and even now :D

these were ever in my list! being a:
teacher
CID ( THEYRE COOL WHEN THEY BREAK CASES! )
graphic / advertising / interior designer
psychologist / psychiatrist
professional dancer
professional guitarist / guitar teacher
artist
journalist
make-up artist
conductor
retailer
hairstylist

and things i really wna do ultimately:
a professional dancer/successful interior designer
and my mom have really high expectations of me being a interior designer. urghh. thats pressurizing!

anyway, some good news.
my sister did well for her prelims, with a L1R4 and L1R5 of 9 and 13, respectively.
and my brother had 9 and 11 for his mid year examinations.
heh! it pays to be hardworking and of cus, a tinge of being brainy.
i have really brilliant siblings i must say. im far in comparison to them in terms of studies!
i never once believed in studying, therefore, NEVER STUDIED.
but thank god, i passed and shockingly enough, results wasnt as bad as i expected them to be. it was 6 points lesser than my thoughts! so naturally, i was jumping for joy. haha.
yeahh, ijtp have always been good in literature and english language since its the school's niche its crazy how such a high percentage can attain As. say, 70%. grr. its something to be proud of, its my motherschool! (: being a convent girl rocks big timeee and its my pride, most definately! (:

2007-09-29T09:29:00.000-07:00

dyed my hair today! base was mahogany with two patch of orange highlights on different areas. heh, its hard to imagine. i promise a uploaded picture soon(: anyhoos, i heart it! feels different (: i guess my dad doesnt like it cus its way too bright (for him)but heyyy, its nice okeh! yeah, my dad is a pretty conventional person so you get the drift.
met eddy after that at tp. and i was super quiet the whole day cus im damn shagged! had macs for dinner then off to the playground. it was comparatively free of noise cus the chatterbox is dreading to open her jaw today.still, we were probing each other with questions. lol (: i enjoy heart to heart sessions. and one of my dreams is to be a psychologist/psychiatrist/counsellor. yeahhh, within that scope.

the newest trick ive grasped,
"IVE A SURPRISE FOR YOU!"
so, a surprise is called a surprise FOR A PARTICULAR REASON.
that was an ironic statement. haha.

ED GREW SMARTER :D

AND IVE COMPLETED ONE SUBJECT! but im depressed due to my lacklustre work!
YEAH, WORK TOWARDS PERFECTION. impossible is nothing (:

2007-09-28T11:47:00.001-07:00

cris and edmund did this to dedicate their love to their other half. respectively, serene and me (:
it took them 2 long hours to complete this.
they DOMINATED the dominoes. simply heart it(literally as well). something more than words can say. i love you too baby.

i love your sweet surprises which makes my day
i love you for being you
i love your everything cus,
i love you.

2007-09-28T09:23:00.000-07:00

im gna dye my hair tmr, again. cm says i keep changing my hair colour. but having it the same all time is pure dullness and i need some level up, if you could gladly comprehend(: imagine looking into the mirror everyday and you see something of no difference, its dullsville. i appreciate changes and challenges, as always (: i cant stick to one subject for long or i'll get utterly weary of it and i dont have a specially high adaption ability, but that doesn't apply to every prospect(:

siamese twins, ive heard of. but siamese turtles?
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20070928/ap_on_fe_st/two_headed_turtl e
i think theyre pretty adorable!

library research/reference tmr!(:
bogged down by assignments.
and im still obscure about what i really want, exhibition or interior!

love love and more love!

2007-09-27T20:44:00.000-07:00

im in school now! yep, i didnt attend the lecture agn. i hate attending lectures. lol. i'd rather use the time to do my assignments! so here i am, after completeing 2 pages of compilation of resource, BLOGGING!

AGENDA FOR TODAY:
MEET DADDY FOR LUNCH SO THAT I CAN GET TRANSPORTED HOME! my ezlink ran out of credit and i hate using my allowance)and yes, did i ever mention i dislike bus no. 56! whenever there isnt a need for that bus, it appears. and when i needed it so urgently, i either missed it or i'll have to wait rather long for it. it happens 9 out of 10 times. so when i step out of school, preparing to walk to the busstop, there! the bus just vooooom past me. grr. angstyyy. im impatient, i hate waiting. haha. yes, sounds pretty ironic cus im a habitual latequeen.
then,
MUG YOUR HOMEWORK JOYCELYN, MUGGGG. mug that brains out.
im gna get that into my brain.
xian ku hou tian okay.
i'll be triggerhappy after that. im gna double that pace. triple rather. haha
okay. im supposed to be doing my work, what else is new?.
- found out interior assignments
- finish moodboard and get it printed
- do chelsea presentation board
- do window display
- research on renaissance
- 1 piece of technical drawing + furniture measurements
- do layout plan for filmmaker

WAHHH A LOT OF WORK
you know teachers?
they make us work like a log
and its annoying!

2007-09-27T10:37:00.000-07:00

yep, im closing down this blog real soon once my accumulated entries hit a whopping 450.
its currently 442. but fret not my friends, ive created an lj account. and im so gna miss this blog, aww. im not deleting it cus i dont have the heart to do so but its getting too big so its time for a change! its still running but im just not posting anymore from then on (:

ed's house today, AGN. but i love his room. its so cosywosy. and i miss that double bed of his cus its uber comfy. gosh, you wouldnt want to wake up once you get your ass on that bed. camwhored. but all pictures turned out to be shaky due to the poor lighting and ISO. ive forgotten all about my photography! haha. ED makes me melt. awww. due to the heavy rain, there was mist on the windows. and when he told me that there's mist, i went to draw the curtains open and i saw this. yeps, it was written from outside..awwww, what a sweetheart!

he looks adorable here!

PEACE OUT

2007-09-26T08:12:00.000-07:00

baby, youre saccharine.
i clearly remember that this photo was taken in O'briens(by the way, im super in love with their sandwiches!) about a year ago when ed and i were at clarke quay working on our photography skills where there was this couple asking if ed's korean. yeah, and somehow, both me and him always get mistaken that we are not singaporeans and that we're siblings! i dont know why. maybe we have small eyes. hahaha. but i'll take that as a compliment cus it might mean we're compatible! hahahah. yehhh, im trying to make myself happy. lol
and i recall that ed thought that i was from HK. GOODNESS. he got that very first impression cus of the way i talk?! and he used to tease me cus im naturally afraid of animals! anyhoos, WEIRD. and i reminisce the days when we camp over at sentosa and at my house when we get too exhausted after mugging our assessments. we were both on our own, quiet and concentrating, i swear! haha. and my parents would wake up us the next day and prepare breakfast for us. and thats when we wanted to explore every single corner of singapore. haha. come to think of it, we do sound a little silly :D awww, i really miss those days darling.
--
yeh, im currently gathering out every single information i have on john richmond, a fashion designer whom is my target client for my interior design. and hes pretty cool (: the twin icons of popular rebellion—rock music and biker chic are details that makes his design a success. so if you guys have any data on this guy, pleaseeeeee let me know (: thanks alot in advance (:

mommy bought focaccia! mannn, it so yummy.

and im a proud of myself today for being such a sweet girlfriend who went down all the way to his house just to feed him medicine though i only have an hour before lesson starts! i bet the bitterness of it has all been melted! haha. and i swear the sultry sun made me swelter. grrrr. i hate feeling all grossed up.

dance proposal made feasible and that elates me! now i can start on my elaborated one including the recruitment strategies, name for the club, registration form, committee and so on. i should see this club emerging before the next school vacation! DANCE IS LIFE! i cant imagine me without dance, edmund, family, friends. i wouldnt be me and complete! im a happy girl right now cus ive got everything! C:

2007-09-25T12:28:00.000-07:00

a whole list of things i need to do!

#25% each accordingly: family, bf, friends, school (: i promise
#go tanning. its been so long. pfft!
#get my hair truncated! its been about 9 months since ive last entered a salon cus ive always been trimming it myself.i'd rather hands on cus i only trust myself. haha. salons are overpriced! i dont likeeeee. anyhoos, was thinking of a red highlight. its orange currently.
#stop the prodigal expenditure!
#more moolas and retails. (thats an irony to the above notion. lol. yeh,it was just a contrivance to get myself out of it)
#go jamming. yes i havent been doing this ever since sec 4. and i seriously gna suck so badly now): urghhh. but im losing a bit of interest in guitar but since this hobby have been stuck with me for 8 years, i better dont let it rust. haha. its my cheer item (: yeh, im trying real hard to write a song now.
#learn to bake a cheesecake. im prepared to camp over ann's house since i reckon there would bound to be countless failures despite my efforts cus im a TOTAL KITCHEN NUT. haha. thank goodness my bf is a trainee chef!
#jiaxiang birthday plan. tsk. im feeling a myriad of being mischievous/frolic/destructive. uh oh.
#be 10x a sweeter girlfriend for my sweetest boyfriend (:
#get a new thumbdrive. mine is virus filled.
#think of a interior design for a fashion designer!
#remember to remind the photographer for my shoot peekshures.
#EAT LESSER, DRINK MORE WATER. yeah, and that applies to anyone out there reading this.
its gooddddd for you.its conducive for your health seksays. haha C:
okay, im getting nowhere. randomness is sinking in. i need to hit the sack right now and dont feel like waking up only after ten days.

yeh, IM GNA REFER TO THIS ENTRY FOR MY DAILY UPDATES.
peaceout!

2007-09-25T10:10:00.000-07:00

i love this photo(: i look so good on you baby.

anyhoos, caught I SHALL PRONOUNCE YOU CHUCK AND LARRY with eddy. its hilarious. i'll give a humour factor: 8. its gayyy and its helluva sexayeee. HAHA.
yeh, ive been a bad girl today. dont question me why. haha.
& ive been quite addicted to bacon aglio ever since ed cooked at his crib that day!

yes, we have a kiddish side (:

by the way,cm took out his braces! and theres still maximum half a year for mine! GRRR! he looks good without them(not that im trying to say it sucks with them on)! wahh, someone grow up already all. ahems.

so, kenneth and i are talking about cars, our future target and salary. so this silly boy wants to drive a ferrari to sweep and he aspires to be a sweeper who earn 10k per month. and i told him hes so gna waste 10k on his diploma when ultimately he chooses to take on a sweeping career. well, HE WANTS TO BE A PROFESSIONAL INTERIOR SWEEPER. dont mind him, hes a bit cranky albeit the fact that he seems to be really motivated to earn big smackeroos in the future. (make sure i see you becoming a million-air by that time!) yeh, million air. i was giggling over it. i replied him by saying that we have million air everywhere. air is uncountable.

well, jx sent me a comment saying that three of us are attached, yeah. we are a clique. haha. so it makes a triple date real easy. lol. jx's birthday next! i have a cranky idea, but the gf must agree to it first! :D

and yup, ed did this using candles (: sweet. look closely,you'll see a heart. heh.

i wna live for just loving you.

2007-09-24T08:02:00.000-07:00

IM REALLY SMILING WITH GLEE NOW!
everything seems perfect today!

1.i finally can get this vest cus the spree is on today! and credits to ann for my order list! and this is so much cheaper than my previous one which cost an effing 90bucks! it was bought on impulse or rather, i didnt have a choice/time cus i needed it for my performance. grr.

2. i met sweetheart during my break today(:
awwww, i missed him badly! i cant teleport right over darling. how i wish i have telekinesis power): but nonetheless, we finally met up! yup, cm said serene's exclusively his! and we're exclusively each other's, ed! and so we were playing with senselessness stuff but silly antics makes our day (: so i wrote something on his palm using my fingers and he gotta guess what it was(: it says i love you, and i REALLY DO baby! geez. ed makes me happy, hes MAGIC. and im never gna lose that, no matter what (:

3. terrence the gay isnt here for lessons today! so we were dismissed just right after a 45 minutes briefing by another interior design teacher.and i was just telling claudia "damnit, first lesson and i gotta face him. -sigh" so, YAY! it makes my day NOT SEEING HIM. i dont like his austere appearance, especially that grim face of his! autocad class ended an hour earlier! thats like, YAYNESS AS WELL! (:

4. the kueh lapis that pamela brought back from batam is really YUMMY compared to singapore's. well, it is its origin, so, MADE IN INDONESIA is definately much fragrant.

5. ron told us news about going for study trip next year and the purpose of revealing it now is for us to gotta strive hard to achieve it and at the same time, save the moolas. theyre gna select students with the better results! i wna go so much. im gna give it my all. time to be a workaholic! yeahhh i know i can i cannnn!
You have to really really want it,
and work for it.
and you'll get it !
So let's mug our creative juice out,
and get the grades we want (:

And we can all be happy.

6. the thought of seeing tmr makes me smile (:

whatever it is, im on a happydappywappy mood today and im not gna let anyone spoil this! (:
as ann said, im on cloud nine! but i beg to differ, ECSTATIC CLOUD ELEVENNNN instead! ((:

but theres something to my worries, unfortunately ):
EXAMS ARE DRAWING NEAR, as always,
and theres one thing ive learnt,
dont let the school get the better of you (:

& thats for getting into interior/exhibition design. when you must be prepared to spend on materials which cost a bomb! my set of 50 markers cost me a mad 250smackeroos!

facebook's interesting! free gifts. haha.
and i love every single thing about you. your smile, your words, your touch. just yourself, you make me beam cus youre my ecstacy(:

2007-09-23T10:32:00.001-07:00

ENTWINED (:

well, my ring disappeared about half a year back and when i was frantically looking for it, it was nowhere in sight or to be found and naturally, i was really upset over it. cried over it several times cus it means more than just losing the ring itself. well, it should be quite comprehensive.
but mhmm, im gna get a new one by asking uncle chye to do it for me using the similar design. by the way, this was handmade by him for our first month last year. its something you cant buy, uniquely designed. its precious(: and i love it.

2007-09-22T12:06:00.000-07:00

where were you last night at midnight?
` ann's house. BBQ!

what was the worst part about your
week?
` before we patched (:

who do you want to see that you
haven't seen in a long time?
` MY FRIENDS! no specifications.

do you enjoy filling out billboards?
` nope

what was the last thing you ate?
` biscuits with peanut butter with grape!

when was the last time you got
frustrated?
` this afternoon. when i was ironing!

where did you have your last meal?
` at the CC near my house. the food's good!

name three things you bought in the
past week.
` white heels from c&k, espirit top, black skinnies.

what was disappointing to you today?
` cant go to cm's house):

how many messages are in your inbox?
`currently 17. i just cleared the rest.

do you like your cell phone?
` i like its sleekness!

where are you going next weekend?
` no plans.

last thing you read?
` ikea's catalouge?

what should you be doing now?
` should be sleeping at this hour.

would you consider a singing career?
` if i can sing

do you feel guilty for splitting up?
` no.

do you ever buy clothes and then never
wear them?
` cant remember. but i think there are.

do you always buy something when you
go shopping?
` not really.

do your friends tell you their
problem?
` at times.

when was the last time you went to a
friend party?
` bbq yesterday.

what kind of music do you usually
listen to?
` anything but techno, trance. whateverrrr. alternative, rock, sentimental. anythinggg.

do you like spending time on your own?
` yes. i need time for myself.

do you enjoy looking after young
children?
` YEAPS!

do you have tv, laptop in your room?
` none.

do you regularly keep a diary or write
a story?
` blog?

Does anyone know your password to your
email?
` yes.

Are you an emotional person?
` very.

What song are you listening to right
now?
` none. my computer's audio isnt working.

Lost a friendship over something
stupid?
` haha. (:

Are you mature or immature?
` both to a certain extend.

Do you want to get married?
` I do wish.

2007-09-22T10:47:00.000-07:00

try this personality test out! its 99% true, for me! (:
http://dna.imagini.net/friends/

my test report:

2007-09-22T01:10:00.000-07:00

i promise a done up dance proposal by sunday, least before school starts!
sorry to keep you guys waiting for a term! its for the whole NAFA dance lovers!

ironing ironing and more ironing.
i tell you i HATE ironing. cus the heat from the iron makes you feel very warm and that makes you frustrated and thats gna make me sulk for the rest of 1 hour, at leastttttttt! grrr. and im not a princess you guys think who knows how to enjoy life only! lol. looks are deceiving. you can bring the phrase "do not judge a book by its cover" to a new level now. (:
im sorry eddie and edmund!
so as usual, i received a phonecall from eddie using his fake indian accent which he claims that it isnt him. ohwell, time for a new trick! and sorry i cant accompany you guys out today! ):
and to edmund as well! enjoy yourselves at cm's house yeah?
i better keep my ass at home these two days to make myself feel better. heh. i dont want my mom to start pulling a long scary monsterish and whatever you can think of FACE TO ME! i detest cold wars, alright.

anyhoos, i better get back to that annoying ironing board before my mom returns home.
love&peace.

2007-09-21T11:47:00.000-07:00

out with ed for evan almighty. basically, the story is about his family belittling Evan's newfound realization, Evan had to do the work that God has given him in what promises to be an unusual adventure for a man who just wanted to serve his country, might actually be serving humanity. it was hilarious whilst meaningful. NOAH'S ARK. A Random Kindness, geddit? (: though i thought bruce almighty was more comical but the overall for evan was more of a preach-y. cant imagine someone walking out on the streets who has a replica of jesus. last supper/so gospel all. haha. grr, i was so late for the movie. 20 minutes, and we missed the beginning! sorry dear. and thanks for the vanilla BNJ! sweet :D
rushed down to ed's house to pack his clothings and change out.
wanted to cab down to ann's house with the heavy charcoal but cab queue was really long so we decided to head for the mrt instead. and we were the latest. geez. and gabrwyn kept teasing us! "dont take so long at his house huh/wah, what did you all do, take so long to come/you must be very tired now right joycelyn." his mind can really travel to anything kinky! and f.y.i, we were late because of nothing like these but instead,

1. ed was being such a bum who refuse to get out of his bed and i literally had to drag him out. avoid thinking what youre thinking (:

2. ann called us last minute to inform us to get charcoal and sausages.

3. ed met his secondary school classmate's mom and she started a real long conversation with us though she already knows we were running late! since her son's taking interior design too, she kept telling me how expensive it was and the courses, working life.blablabla.the list goes on. and i realised she never fails to repeat herself. haha. and there she goes telling ed "still so shuai ge, the face still there" hahaha. that was quite funny. BUT TRUE OKEH! (: p.s: you look good in your uniform!)

4. the cab at pasir ris took approximately 15minutes to arrive.

well, the little things amounts up to an hour or so! its not really our fault you knowww. haha.

and so, ed was cooking half the time since hes titled CHEF for tonight. aww, the sausages were really good. shishamo was damn FAT. chicken chop was yummy.jacket fish wasnt that fresh. but overall, it was good! the lamb's marinated with rosemary, niceeee. getting it catered is actually much easier. haha. spent around 200 on 8 of us the whole night.

gab, jx and xw was trying so damn hard to get cm down the pool. lol. and they had to do some actions er *CENSORED* haha. guys are always guys, no qualms. SO ROUGH! serene was so heartpain! goshhh.

i finally get to swim! haha. and i love ann's condo pool. or maybe it just feels cosy with you around(: damn resort like. relaxed.

really sorry for the absence of mooncake, ann! but thanks to serene, we had two:D i owe you one babe! go singing soon pretty please!

played with sparkles and got reprimanded by the security cus it was under the rules and regulations that its a NO NO.on every single bbq occasion, he never fails to appear to tell us to lower our volume and dont do this-dont do that. YEAHHHH. not like our sparkles are gonna burn your pool or chair or whatever! ohwells. we finished our last stick anyway. there were more than enough for everyone. and when i passed gab the sticks, he kept saying i look like im praying to him. what an idiot. we formed a circle holding those sticks. now, we look like we're praying to each other. lol.

had a game of chinese idioms. and lol. its damn difficult especially for people like ed and cm cus their chinese SUCKKKKK BIG TIME but it was ed's idea, how dumb. like digging a hole for yourself. geewhiz. so when you cant get it after a while, we count down from 10 secs. and you gotta gulp the baileys down. lol. cm's got the worse counts, indefinitely. initially, gab suggested dripping candle wax on losers. so mean. i told him that isnt called punishment anymore, its TORTURE! haha. soon it got uninteresting cus we were running out of words badly. so we settled for just a casual chat. but half the time, serene and cm seems to be in their own world!

cabbed home after that. reached home about one plus, two. yeah. read through ikea's catalouge.now i feel like painting the plain brown shoerack. heh.

hope to see them this coming dec for a bbq again! (: love.

peaceout!

2007-09-20T02:16:00.000-07:00

DANCE XPLOSION 2 PRELIMINARY ROUND,
and i managed to dig this out. (:

left (front to back) : farid, me, helena
right (front to back): connie, kelvin,longzhen.

geez, get your ass to the dancefloor joycelyn or you're so gna rust!

2007-09-19T22:17:00.001-07:00

BBQ'S TMR. FINALLY! this week's been so great, omitting the errr, not so good days.

edrea! im glad where we came from! IJ ALL THE WAYYYY! (:
you can take a girl out of a convent but you can never take the convent out of the girl(:

who cares what people think yes? as long we know we're not the arrogant ones!

LOOK AT HOW MUCH WE'VE GROWN JUST FOR THE PAST ONE YEAR!
then:

now:

and i cant stop laughing at the fact he looks so SMALL BOYYY!
anyway, you can call him edmund/ed/POTATO! yes, "jia kantang"

2007-09-19T09:54:00.000-07:00

you girls reminds me of secondary school kids.
and in my opinion, secondary school kids are still learning to grow up.
youre over that section, abc is long overrrr.
GET REAL and grow some mature cells in you, little toddlers!

if you have an issue with the way i blog, theres definately a way to reach me to tell me straight in my ass. (yes, youre way too under privileged for my face since youre so immature. my face doesnt like childish critters, geddit?) going round but not to its bullseye will not function to its best? if you wna ace it to the maximum, i recommend you theres no need to follow my shadow. i have an identity, mind you? you think people would agree with your very own verified statements? then youre absolutely incorrect. why not give it a thought with an extend of depth? oh, i nearly forgotten. you girls cant think with some depth since youre too shallow for it. and i meant, really judgemental. and some added, a tinge of arrogance. i dont mean to be nasty, OH. but some sarcasm must be intended on people like these. ahh,leash it out. but i would rather call it self defensive. yes, youre at liberty to speak your piece, not a single soul is ceasing your say.so give me the least humane right to speak mine too. damnit, after saying so much, i dont even know if you understand me, cheenapeenas?(:

2007-09-19T09:00:00.000-07:00

a long awaited day (:

i love you.

2007-09-18T08:21:00.001-07:00

RANDOMMMMMM. im on that mood today. OOOH.

GEEEZZ! facebook's riveting with its amusing subjects (: and im still a nut to it! its similar to friendster but it has many other functions. haha. how cool when you can give a present, FREE (:

anyway, pool today was good. prolly cus we played billard first. so when i was at the pool table, it seems like an easy feat suddenly. but that doesnt mean im good! just pretty much on form today. i thrashed. and got thrashed. haha. we're quits (:

ive a extremely bad blemished face right now ): thanks to the past week of assessments which has kept me up till the dawn. this is making me sulk a lot and i dont like ittttt! grrrr.

farid's having a performance this friday and JL's in too! i hope im going! but gyming at ann house is priority! its been at least two months since ive last had my last dance performance. hope to see one coming up in this november vacation!

im adhering to my planned schedule for my next coming school term, allowing work to be much easier so i would be more composed during my assessment period rather than venting my stress and anger ):

i tell youuu! I HATE DIRTY OLD PERVERTS. girls, dont you wish you can gorge their eyes out at times and make the dogs chew them? eww, i sound gross now :/ but its something you really wish to do at that moment when they piss you off majorly!

i cant wait till tmr (:

2007-09-17T07:46:00.000-07:00

IM TOTALLY ANTICIPATING FOR A MERRY FRIDAY TO ARRIVE :D and im really having the craziest ideas now! pre lantern festival celebration with pretty sparkles and candles! and (: shall update after the bbq!

i cant deceive myself that i really love you

2007-09-16T08:56:00.000-07:00

cast our fears aside

term break is almost over, sigh.
and sigh harder to my current problems.
well, life is a roller coaster. just think: if you havent been through that roller coaster, youve not been through life, right? (:

cm, ed, ann and me are having a conversation now and we're discussing about the moolas yo!
debating how rich cm is having in his spendable account. and how is he even richer in his untouchable one. gasp. i shall not mention anything so as to curb his egoism. take that as a joke alright cm, i meant it as one. geez. im so lazy to get my ass off to make a buzz to go back to work on sundays. that would be an extra 140 in two days. just felt theres a better way to live the holidays. well, its called the HOLIDAYS for a reason(: after the storms, i have to enjoy myself!

had a heart to heart talk with ann for the past one hour on the phone. felt good.she may be joining me for shopping with my mommy tmr! yes, i blessed to have a hippie mom who goes crazy with me! im glad she respects my decisions (: thanks mommy with tons of love!

well, thats how my agenda goes for this coming week. similarly, ann's gna have a hip week ahead too! i see a packed week ahead. hope i would obtain full enjoyment before school starts!
monday: shopping with mommy! (its good when she pays for everything, aww) best if ann is joining us!
tuesday: we shall leave it to mr terren? or thu? haha. since its a promised trip after so long!
wednesday: out out out! :D geez
thursday: rest day!
friday: BBQ. long awaited! a note to myself: REMEMBER HONEY!

thrash thrash thrash;
no four letters, no chances.

2007-09-15T08:53:00.000-07:00

dear __ (you should know who you are when you read this),

dont be discouraged/disheartened and neither should you deprive yourself of courage, hope, or confidence. im sure youre not a person who get disheartened easily and most importantly, do not get affected by the negative aspects surrounding you and that youre strong and sensible enough to understand that external outlooks isnt everything. being in the limelight does not designate anything either-- theyre jst secondary factors. so what about looking good outside but unpleasant inside? im sure you dont want it to be that way, right? leash your self confidence out, you are so much better in a lot of areas. trust me, you are really looking good inside. always bear in mind that "beauty lies in the eye of the beholder" - your friends around you would really love your true and humble self. at least for me, i really do admire your great moral power and tolerance of all the accumulated matters. dont let your heart fail you neither let courage desert you.youre the greatest yourself (:

posted, and agn, for a different person under the same scenario. buck up that courage dude(:

2007-09-15T06:26:00.000-07:00

shopping with joanne! :D
pictures will be uploaded some time later due to some faulty issues. yes, i desperately need a change of system!
yups, she bought a bikini and two pair of shorts! and i got my black skinnies and black cardigan.
retail therapy really does the job for girls!
met this interesting guy who really knows how to interact with customers who was attending to the fitting room.
while i was in queue, we got engaged in a conversation on a topic about "KIDS"
he approached me with a question if i like toddlers and im like, why not! theyre so adorable and most innocent people!and i swear they make your day like no one else does!
and guess what he replied me. "well if i want kids, i would rather have them in places like maldives. well, you see hes quite a funky laid back guy. haha.
KFC for lunch. its been long since ive ate the chicken there. and im still not eating them! they redefine the word FAT!
walked to far east later and its been long since ive shopped there! really really eons. and still, i dont fancy the fashion they carry there. oh, just bought a round gold pair of earrings thats all. i have this fetish for round earrings. half of them i have are round! lol. i think they suit me better (:
jo realised she lost her EZ link while shes paying for her bikini and she was so damn worried. darling, just a small matter, relax (:
went to bukit batok later to meet ed after school while she went home from there.
then both of us cabbed down to cathay so as to not let cm and serene wait damn long but guess what! when we've reached, cm was only on his way to pasir ris to fetch serene here. goodness. anyway, blame it on my laziness as well ):
wanted to check movie timings for hairspray but there wasnt any slots? and thats weird. so we settled down for fish beehoon at PS foodcourt. lol. first time meeting serene. shes a nice girl afterall, being so damn sweet to cm. betcha like honey! cleaning his mouth for him after meals and when rub his wounds when i whacked him! haha. and i couldnt stop myself from laughing! sorry lahhhhhh, but im really not used seeing this.
bnj milkshakes after! :D just slacked around. bought a pint of dublin back! yay, ice cream makes me a happy girl!
yes im a ice cream nut(:
ed fetched me home after that. he was left with no choice cus cm and serene ran away!
sorry for the trouble.
had a heart to heart talk with mommy after that. felt good with her advices (: anyway,

take care you people!
im still holding on somehow, wishing i could change the world goes round

2007-09-14T09:59:00.000-07:00

Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about
we just cant let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret it

i see no point when i dont see my significance in you.
are you really trying?

2007-09-13T00:29:00.000-07:00

let not your worries be a hindrance.
and it is that impediment that is not getting us moving on.

2007-09-10T12:27:00.000-07:00

im sorry, ive tried really hard.
i would want the best for you boy.
thanks for being such a so darn good bf who does so many things for me.
some things i'll never forget.
im sorry for what i caused you to feel...

2007-09-08T10:41:00.000-07:00

:D
thats all i feel like relating to my readers.
with hun of loveee/

2007-09-07T10:34:00.000-07:00

weesiang says:
today is saturday.
weesiang says:
hahah.
weesiang says:
i kept thinking its sunday.
weesiang says:
lol.
we are gold diggers. DRAMA QUEENNN. says:
haha
we are gold diggers. DRAMA QUEENNN. says:
oh
we are gold diggers. DRAMA QUEENNN. says:
saturday arrived
we are gold diggers. DRAMA QUEENNN. says:
oh my holy moo

2 more days till my doomsday arrive. goodluck ms quek.

2007-09-06T14:39:00.000-07:00

school was fun today albeit the fact that i cant really concentrate cus i was way too sleepy! and theres something i cant understand. BILL DISLIKES GIRLS SCHOOL GIRLS. therefore, that makes me wonder why hes my friend. his discrimination could have drive me deranged if he didnt stop after 20 minutes of generalizing, i must say. what he meant by that phrase was girls school girls are bimbotic and bitchy. i need a say about this! first, not ALL girls school girls are bimbotic. and plus, top convent school girls are pretty intelligent. but then again, im not refering to ALL. there are differentiations in everyone, yes? bitchy wise. mhmm. GIRLS ARE BITCHY. there are six sides to a cube! WELL, bitchy guys arent getting any less nowadays anyway/grins.
and f.y.i, BILL ATE UP THE PRAWN DONT KNOW WHAT THING that eddie bought for both of us. he ate ALL up, ALL. whatapigggg. and complained after eating. tsk.
stayed back in school with kimie, eddie and another guy. er, john? johnny? whatever it is. we were doing our work OBEDIENTLY till 11pm where the security decides to lock the door to indicate in such a way hes chasing us out! mom and dad picked me up. went for dinner then home. &damn, there are some problems with my autocad. i mean, i cant open it with my computer. i cant comprehend why still when i had it done in my computer! grr. this is pissing me off badly, really.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE,
two more days to SELF-proclaimed freedom. self, indeed. excluding the written test of the different materials on friday.

this pile of homework i have left is becoming a motivation;

1. ceiling of bedroom, toilet and kitchen to be rendered. layout plan for kitchen. elevations for three components
2. autocad's very last bit
3. exhibition graphic input
4. 3 technical drawings
5. choosing materials for the interior
6. revision of materials for upcoming test.

THATS ALL! :D that isnt a lot compared to the overwhelming stress which im glad to say its over today (: and my mom's complaining that im too talkative and she derive at the fact i have too minimal amount of sleep.

anyway,so guess what i need now...

RETAIL THERAPY! (with a empty wallet, HA)
window retail therapy. heh.

2007-09-06T09:34:00.000-07:00

#TACITURN

if loving you wasnt a crime,

2007-09-05T10:45:00.000-07:00

GRRRRRRR!
sum this up.
dead tired. homework pile retains. effing weird messages. bangs. eyelids weighing a hun kg. getting zits on my forehead due to terrible lack of beauty sleep. now i realised its called beauty sleep for a damn bloody reason. i love kimie (: remember to get our brain functioning together and test each other. we'll aim for full score, really (:

2007-09-04T10:20:00.000-07:00

stress is caffeine!
first it was a online conversation with claudia;

me: okay. you better sleep soon. i think youre too stressful! jabbering nonsense already!tmr i dont wna see panda walking around in class. i'll import you back to china immediately!
claudia : im a high class panda. im from korea and i eat maple leaves. you ah better sleep early. see! drop so much hair. today you wake up you have bangs! (f.y.i, i just truncated my fringe today)

BYE HOOS. homework mugging time.

2007-09-03T09:02:00.001-07:00

sigh. why does homework seems to be a never ending serial.
i want that vintage muppets rock&roll shirt so much! but they only have L size left. brr!
im going shopping tmr, I HOPE :D

2007-09-02T09:18:00.000-07:00

back from the hiatus of blogging everyone! (:
things have been going (alright) but i would say not on a very favourable side, unfortunately.
i would skip the unhappy things and update on the merrywerry stuff (:

im on my way to completing my assessment! though theres still a great scope of work waiting for me on my desk but at least its slowly omitting from my agenda. thripleyeahforit! SCREAM WITH ME YO! (: i bought 15 new markers! and it really makes me happy cus it makes rendering ten times easier! kimie has been such a lovely lady, helping me with my autocad. proud to present her as my LOVELIEST FRIEND who came down all the way from sengkang to help me. im glad to have such a helpful someone by my side! embrace love! (:: ohwells, its the last week of school! im looking forward to the next two weeks of holidays! and i shall put the word into good use by
1. bringing kimie to fishermen wharf! prolly together with kaili all! (:
2. get my black skinnies!
3. sort out my stuff. my room is getting a tad untidy for my comfort.
4. practice my autocad
5. go out with MHMM. i dont know yet! (:

i guess thats about it. its just a short holiday!
counting down the next 1.5 years. i guess i will be completing my diploma course by then! gasp. all the way joycelynnnn! i must encourage myself yes!
and im looking at britian, GLEAMINGGG!

i took 5 hours to do this! including the distractions. HA!

us, with the completed exhibition design chelsea water bottle point of purchase unit! and very proud of it, OF COURSE! (:

last of all! i love my bf.
xtws, im never gna change my mind about what my ___ thinks (:

uninteresting day ahead

2007-08-24T22:55:00.000-07:00

i expect this weekend to be a dull, long one. yes, it should not be fun cus i have to force myself to complete my work, damn! i'll be in the library later! well, i expect work to be half done. as i said, the library is a really productive place (:

i found out certain things from some messages. and im not shocked either. i guess i expected it.

anyhoos, we had pizza with cheese fondue yesterday! cus i had a free e voucher for a free hawaiian pizza! haha its pretty good, just that the cheese fondue was a tad salty. boo. went shopping with mommy yesterday. haha. shes a crazy woman i swear! haha. she got so excited while talking to the point that when she said the word "enter" so loudly that people around us could hear it so clearly! haha. and she was blushing!, from laughing actually (: ooh, i got my brown platforms!

just had self dance practice and im off to the library now. bye people!

2007-08-24T06:57:00.000-07:00

my brother is one lucky guy! he managed to see a shooting star a few months back and a full rainbow yesterday! ughh, its somethings that some people dont even get to see in a lifetime! and he managed to take a shot of it. mann, its damn pretty! i dont wna edit it. its natural :D im so glad i have a picture of it!

now, people nowadays are filled with angst! take a chill pill!:D

2007-08-23T16:16:00.000-07:00

im still whopping awake despite the lack of sleep for the past week. the earliest i can recall that i hit the sack was 430am and the addition of hours that im under my cosy bedspread is definately less than 24hours. and once i sleep, its quite impossible for me to meet the sun and i'll choose to skip lectures but attendance is obligatory so, ohwells ):
i got this feeling im so gna be like bill one day where coffee becomes my best friend and i see this day coming really soon. the way bill drinks his coffee is freakish. i pray that i dont see myself gulping 5 whole flask in a few hours.

fortunately, i manage to complete my work. i realise ive been doing my work at the latest minute, forever. and its a detrimental habit i should try kicking away. but somehow, this method has become habitual but it isnt a healthy way.i can see growing acnes and zits. ouh! maybe i should try to adapt to consistent lifestyle in my following term.

anyway, ive received a few raunchy messages on a certain website; so sexually explicit, and i just cant ignore it. it'll be doing myself injustice! at least i should do something as an act of human rights. hurrrr/

2007-08-23T13:05:00.000-07:00

im so gna get this dress C: i tried it and it looks pretty good! and surprisingly,the M is really loose at the sides. brr. suppose to go vivo and check if theres a S available but i forgot! i want to get it online cus its so much cheaper! but they dont carry S!):

2007-08-23T11:17:00.000-07:00

IM A BAD BAD GIRL TODAY! feel quite guilty actually.
i skipped whole day's lectures ):
went shopping alone in the morning while waiting for xavier! theres a new shop in wisma called cotton on!(: im gna get my black skinnies from there cus its so damn comfy compared to topshop's and its the price is like 3times lesser! and prolly the red skirt too :D the staffs there are really amicable and kwelxz. mostly a bunch of caucasian! yo! in da house! and the best part was i saw this exact bangle that i broke and it was only selling for 5bucks! 5! when i got it for 13! haha, i sound like im advertising for the shop! but theres no reason for me not to check them out since its newly launched. haha, working is good :D when you get your pay, mhmm! its shopping time! haha! then after, met him, and got him a cookie with a note which he threw it away! :C anyway, this looks happy. haha.

we walked around raffles city. had a mix 'n' match at bnj. and he suddenly took out his shoes and showed me his socks HAHAHAHA! omg i laughed like mad. its damn adorable haha. ohhh! and yay for my blue heels, there you go a promised picture, coincidentally. haha

it was fun hoos. which after, we dropped by vivo, headed to F21 to get my belt cus my pants were dropping and everyone can see my butt crack, grr! haha i quite positively sure i would go back to get that navyblue belt! its so nice! grrrr! (HINTS. cough.) then we went bnj agn, bought smoothie! haha, it was good. refreshing. i felt kinda awkward so i didnt step in. dont ask me why, i dont know either. now i cant find myself stepping into the shop. lol. and i had a sudden crave for marche's calamari! haha. had them with rosti with smoked salmon and sirloin steak! yummy! took a bus back. it was a long ride home and we were so shagged! especially me! having to sleep at 4,5 or 6 for the past week,mugging homework. im still having cough and it sucks! came home, forgo dinner, and i went to sleep at 830. and i intend to wake up to complete my work for tmr! and soooo, here i am! :D

everyday, youre the first and last in my thoughts.

2007-08-22T11:18:00.000-07:00

yay! im such a happy girl today!i can list down a whole good ten reasons why C:
firstly first, my mom seems to be in a good mood today and that sets me at ease cus i dont expect to see any human volcanic eruption during this point of time. its not exactly a good timing cus im packed with loads of school work and wouldnt want anything else to trouble me right now
secondly, i got the money i urgently needed. and i really want to thank xavier so much for this. without HIM, i wouldnt have gotten it. yes, told you hes my RAINBOW. mine, ALL MINE.
thirdly, I CAN RESIST FISHERMAN'S WHARF! HAHA, believe it!
fourth, after today i feel i can have a better rest tmr
fifth, i finally understand my two point perspective thanks to LI LIN! I OWE HER ONE BIG TIME! thanks for the patience and guidance. man, shes really a fantastic friend.
sixth, i met up with ed and cm. you know how much i miss them! and we took many crazy and nice shots (: heart.
seventh, my mom didnt take my salary to bank in! and she paid for my hp bill! haha, i was in a state of shock when she told me that. lol.
eighth, its good hair day!
ninth, i know where to get the fisheye camera now! :D
tenth, i met my ecstacy today, though its only for 5minutes to pass me somestuff, but its all worthwhile, right?(: heart you baby boy.

JOYCELYN'S GNA BE A GOOD GIRL FOR THESE TWO WEEKS :D

2007-08-21T12:13:00.000-07:00

-Prologue-

1. Who took your default pic?
>> Myself.

2. Exactly what are you wearing right
now?
>> ij fiesta shirt and ij primary shorts. haha. yes i still can fit.

3. What is your current problem?
>> too many school work. Too little time.

4. What makes you most happy?
>> Ice cream

5. What's the name of the song that
you're listening to?
>> man eater - nelly furtado

6. do you like MTV?
>> but ive no cable at home ):

7. Name something that annoys you
about people?
>>irritatants!

Chapter 1:

1. Nickname
>> dory

2. eye color?
>> brownish black?

3. hair color?
>> red with orange highlight.

---------------------------------------
Chapter 2:
FAMILY

1. Do you live with your parent(s)?
>> Yeap.

2. Do you get along with your parent
>>at times when they dont bother a shit about what im doimg, then yes.

3. Are your parents
married/separated/divorced?
>> Married

4.Do you have any brothers or sisters?
>> younger sis and bro

Chapter 3:
FAVORITE

1. Ice cream?
>> ben n jerrys strawberry cheesecake

2. Season/s?
>> haha, sadly theres no winter in singapore. but autumn is a beauty

3. Book:
>> interior books. im so gna be a nerd o:

4. Band/s:
>> none.

5. Food:
>> Lots

6. drink(s) (non alcoholic):
>> milk, lemon tea, iced milo

8. past-time:
>> music, sing, draw, dance, write, guitar

9. pen color:
>> black

10. store:
>> Guess

Chapter 4:
DO YOU-

1.Write on your hand?
>> nope. i hate it. haha. but i love to draw on others hands.

2. Call people back?
>> depends. normally yes.

4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
>> yea

5. Have Mental Health Issues?
>> Nope

Chapter 5:

1. Broken a bone?
>> hairline crack on my wrist

3. Had physical therapy?
>> nope

4. Gotten surgery?
>> yes, on my heart

5. Taken painkillers?
>>not that i remember

6. Have you ever gone
scubadiving/snorkeling?
>> nah.

7. Been stung by a bee?
>> Nope

8. Threw up in a doctors office?
>> nope not yet

Chapter 6:
Who/what was the last:

1. Movie you saw in the movie theatres?
>> simpsons

2. Person to text you?
>> my phone's confiscated :C but should be shirlee.haha

3. Thing you touched?
>> Mouse/keyboard

5. Thing you said?
>> ya,what.

7. Person you hugged?
>> dear boy

10. Person to call you?
>> mom.

11. Last book you read?
>> cant remember.

12. Last person you danced with?
>> haha farid?

2007-08-21T11:05:00.000-07:00

is goodbye or sorry a harder word to say?

pertaining to my cogitated thoughts, i feel that sorry is just finding the right opportunity to speak and to state as a determination of fact, to verbalize our feelings whilst goodbye is more like a decision which requires a lot of determination, as well. in both circumstance, determination is mentioned.

well, me and xavier were questionin each other which one is harder to express and we both agreed on goodbye.
and if because of refusing to apologise, might cause a tragedy like goodbye is definately not a credit. your decision, your determination.

let me show you the world through my eyes; all you'll see is you.

2007-08-20T13:58:00.000-07:00

Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

2007-08-20T10:58:00.000-07:00

mugmugmug :C
school's a bitch. overwrought by the massive amount of uncompleted work. fraction of work done is only one fifth. tell me how not to feel uneasy about this. tutorials are around the corner and i dont seem to be bucking myself up or rather, no matter how much effort i put in, the work seems to be piling up and never down. its a bottomless pit. ohwells, face up to the interior's society, its gna be similar. hang in there all you people as well.
how i wish to revert back to holidays life in this instance. well, people really tend to procrastinate a lot and as a human(cough), i was complaining how boring were the four months of very sufficient holidays and yearn so much to go back to school and now here i am, showing my dissatisfaction, AGAIN.
48 hours for me never seems to be enough, let alone 24. and a mind boggling question begets, why the hell am i still sitting here. but no matter how i much i resent and refuse, i still gotta do what i gotta do. this is always etched and vivid in my mind "I will not disappoint the confidence you have put in me" i know my mum has high expectations of me since she always felt i have IT and i can never seem to meet my own standards. in fact, im really stressed up, i really am. i think its time to look into the mirror and bring the self confidence up. well, every cloud has a silver lining.i pray for sign of hope in this gloomy situation and a hopeful prospect in the midst of this difficulty. i gotta snap outta my depressed funk and dont indulge in black moods, something i have to remind myself constantly.

lessons arent that stimulating and doesnt seem to invigorate me at all. prolly i was just a little more talkative during autocad classes. and goodness gracious me, i didnt even touch my work AT ALL. partially due to bill annoying me half the time or otherwise, i was distracted by online nudging. urgh. SCREAMS (exactly what i feel like doing now)

why does it seem that i can never accomplish anything?

2007-08-19T11:13:00.000-07:00

i finally executed my plans today and three cheers for it please!
to complete the film maker's room and leave the rendering till tmr morning, find images! (:
doing work in the library is definately generative. haha. easier when there are reference books around to your convenience as well(: so, haha. library every weekend shall it be.
i promised an early wake tmr at 9am since my father yearns to have breakfast with me so much and i suppose, followed by grocery shopping with my mom after that. its a monday's routine so far.

aww, i missed the fireworks display! and im angry with myself for not joining them that day cus it was magnificent( i saw the pictures!) it was really sweet with prominent heartshaped display especially for couples viewing it together that night(: and as far as i know, ive never missed a single one ever since last year. ouh.

im seriously penniless! ): and this is making me really sad. i need to settle my hp bills cus my parents refuse to foot it for me! ): and the warning letter has already arrive and i havent even made my payment yet! tell me where to get $99.02 when i dont even have a single cent in my wallet. if you wna consider that few cents, then we could do the sub payment. funneh.

anyhoos, a picture you seldom get to see! haha, im actually wearing a skirt which is just above my knee and this dont usually happen. so,enjoy! :D:D it was supposed to be worn at the hips, normally.but i shifted it to my waist and used a elastic belt to support it. viola, it looks not bad to me. something new. looks really "office lady" and decent. uhm. that doesnt mean i dress indecently all times! shorts is just habitual for me thts all. and anyway, its COMMON. singapore weather can be quite killer at times you know (:

(:

happenings in life's inevitable, cherish what you have.
and thats what im doing now, by treasuring you.

2007-08-18T04:45:00.000-07:00

my nieces and nephews
(from left) janessa, jarren, me, helene taken during CNY' 07

today was unproductive. homework, sigh. the bane of my existance. i terribly need a receptive mind at this instance.

and im in love with this chinese song, which is a duet (:
http://terriblevegetables.blogspot.com
oooh, sounds like im advertising for your blog dear. haha.
and i really love pretty vignettes. i do have a few in my sketch books, for you (::

my brother has a homoerotic nick on his msn which was really hilarious.gasp. me and my sister were like sniggering at it. ohwells, im not gna mention what it is to save his embarrassment.

even past 3am, there is still people online who are dear to you.
who would through conversation albeit virtual, keep you company through the boring afternoons but sometimes i do wonder if i am inconsequential to you.

2007-08-17T12:15:00.000-07:00

blow, off to where you are.

where soul meet soul on lovers lips,
and with every single breath i have,
from the bottom of every inch of my heart,
i love you.

2007-08-17T00:38:00.000-07:00

im seriously in love with the electric blue heels that ws bought for me. gasp! i promise an uploaded picture as soon as possible(: heart it so much to the extent that i would go to the rack and look at it when im bored.well. anything random can come out of boredom! (haha) and i seriously need my honeydrink badly to ease my cough due to excessive singing sessions yesterday.

randomly, here are the top five things that annoy me

#1
people who conveniently walk three metres or less ahead of you, and fla a cab when you've been waiting for one. like UH! courtesy much?

#2
being not able to find what i want, when i want
i really get angry with myself

#3
when i cant seem to complete, lest get started on my assignments.

#4
when i get leg muscle cramp during my sleep.

#5
when unknown people add you online and start asking you a hell loads of questions which doesnt even seem to be of their concern. i dont call this introduction, its just pure irritant. and im no fan of insensitivity (if you comprehend what im trying to explain)

and there are many more which i just dont wna post. just dont wish to bring out the complain queen in me. its obvious when a girl starts bitching about anything on earth, shes gonna go on, rambling(: its typical!

things i really need to get done!
1. guess exhibition design
2. mock up for exhibition design
3. interior box
4. filmmaker's room
5. learn autocad so damn well and knowing it as easily as my ABCs
6. settle my driving test date

hookay, off to be a couch potato with my honeydrink now. laters

what if i told you it was all meant to be.

2007-08-16T10:46:00.000-07:00

its been a long school day with three consecutive boring lessons to start the day off. and ive gotta redo my furniture design cus the angle looks strange! sinaga's lesson was fine. he was pretty pleased with my GUESS exhibition proposal and therefore, after staring at it for 8 seconds, he said GO AHEAD. phew. i felt that it was a burden of my shoulders. its just how clients accepts your proposal in future in the society i suppose. naturally, you will beam with pride cus it has been a hard and continuous work that you had spent the night doing. then followed by a really rushed lunch break and i could already feel that im choking in bake beans. it was technology class after that, and seriously, this is the utmost useless class minus the slight theory knowledge that is imposed cus its just to see how NEAT you trace! well, its the 21st century we are talking about. AUTOCAD, 3D MAX. mann, talking about autocad, im seriously not familiar with it and i think i ought to go bang the wall for this cus its one of the most crucial component in designing ): ohwells, i feel so unhappy right now upon thinking of the workload.

OMG, i saw this girl with the A&F SHIRT i always wanted which cost like 100 odd moolas. sighh. this is soooANNOYING.

anyhoos, kbox with ws, dennis, phuong, bill NATTAPON, weiwei, sisi, jiahuan, vi. JIAHUAN FOOTED THE BILL. thanks so much!noticed why i made nattapon in capitals? haha! i enjoy calling bill that but he seriously detest it but that was to thank him for calling me JQUEK. annoyingness. ive been a little cranked up today. ohbotherdash\ AND JIAHUAN CAN FREAKING SING. when he sang, to those who have never heard him before, they were like -- "omg" faces. better than the singer, in my opinion. go be singer la, jh! HAHA. and his gf is one lucky babe! he bought her chanel stuff! one whole big box okay. omg.and from what i know, he bought her LV bag for valentines!

my vocabulary is terribly lacking in this entry. my mind is quite BLOBBBBB right now. im shagged already having to sleep at 6am this morning and to wake up at 9! sigh, i pray for holidays to arrive really soon. hang in there, just 3 more weeks(:

I HAVE AN ANNOYING BOYFRIEND BUT I STILL LOVE HIM! (:
thirtythreedays, sexc.

2007-08-15T12:57:00.000-07:00

MY FURNITURE IS FINALLY DONEEE! HAHA. ohh. its supposed to be isometric.just tilt your screen. haha im lazy to rotate it(:
THERES MORE COLOURING TO BE DONE AT ITS 4am NOW ):

2007-08-12T10:13:00.000-07:00

im giving this a damn serious thought, no trifling or jesting.
im so gonna move out one fine day when things between me and my mom go BOOM BAH BOMB! xzxzxzxzxz, you get the drill/ its just for the benefit for both of us. outsiders,sheesh if you know nothing about whats happening. and to my close friends whom ive revealed this too,i need your honest comments and advices. so far, thanks my xavierboy and cm.

ohyes. xavier = weesiang
we christened him XAVIER. i was just randomly thinking of names. and we found xavier so puurrfect for him, yet so, tristen was another one pondering in our minds but ultimately, xavier was the choice(: haha. and i realised choosing a name you like most is not an easy task afterall.

10 random updates

1. 2 more days to 15th. how fast.gonna be our first month together (: sweet.
2. my mom and i are having cold war now, without having started the hot one, i foresee another cold one after that.
3. i might be moving out, i might be not. not about comfort zone and moolas, its about the parents.
4. my schoolwork is hell. LITERALLY HELL. i dont mind dying now if i can go to heaven(:
5. BYUL meaning star in korean is a title of a song in the OST of 200pounds of beauty. and its a pretty song(:
6. i fking need a job that pays more than my current one in any case i really move out one day.
7. i havent been mugging ever since the start of school,which is seemingly detrimental to my results.
8. i dont know if im allowed out on ed's birthday and i will feel extremely apologetic if im not able to attend his celebration since theyve been such sweetheart on mine.
9. i forgot marianne's birthday and i think i ought to strangle myself cus she wished me on mine.
10. I FORGOT WHAT I WNA SAY. im feeling a bit of dory syndrome due to excessive moody-ness during daybreak.

life is so fktard right now. anyway,i guess some words that were originally considered profane have become much less offensive with the increasing secularity of society. Others, primarily racial or ethnic epithets, can be considered part of hate speech. haha. just dont read too much into it lah.lol. heck the severity.

byehoos.

And each night I taste the purest of pain

2007-08-11T10:35:00.001-07:00

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

BYUL - 200 pounds of beauty.

2007-08-09T03:52:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEESIANG! & HAPPY NATIONAL DAY to all! (:hope you like the custom made present to your preference(the colour and wordings,cough) ive christened him my sexiest boy alive(: and now national day seems small.lol.
my dear boy's birthday was a blast i guess! with the staff and every single customer in fish and co. joining in the birthday celebration and rap!
grins
bet he felt embarrassed when he was invited to stand up holding a sparkle in his hand.we bought a chunky monkey cake for him too.haha. thanks to jordan and edmund for helping me collect and order the cake respectively.
skipped school the whole day just for him so please be very honoured, boy (:
had lunch at asian kitchen and followed by secret recipe for a relishing marble cheese cake for tea time.
he bought a pair of puma sneakers and topshop skinnies. whatever it is, both of us were shopping and he ended up carrying three shopping bags while i had none when we shopped TOGETHER. geddit? i thought shopping is a girl's thing. lol.
i guess it was more like i refused to spend my money since i know this month's expenditure is gonna be a bomb since there are so many close friends' birthday! and plus i didnt want it to be an impulse buy and i felt i should stop being a extravagant shopper on the thought that my consolidated withdrawal in 3 weeks was 750smackeroos.
but awww, my sweetheart actually got me the electric blue heels i fancy and was hesitating if i should purchase at m)phosis! its so hot hot HOT! and he was sweating profusely when he ran to meet me. thank you so so so much! haha,someone's learning to be a sweet kiddo(:

ive got my grey contacts and bubble tunic dress. it was short but elongates my legs. love it(: haha.

im happy today, can you tell? but im sure weesiang is happier than me.love you my kickass boy(:

i need you to smile with me when im happy and be with me when im sad.

2007-08-06T11:00:00.000-07:00

homeworks are horrifying. i mean, the load. not homework itself literally.
counting down 2 more days before my dear boy's 17th birthday. aw, i feel old. birthday plan is almost up. hope he'll like it. and before that, ive 1001 things to do and 1002 deadlines to meet. i know its pure exaggeration but life isnt that pretty as a spectrum right now.
& im just totally anticipating for holidays to arrive and i know i shouldnt be procrastinating right now since my 4 months long break have just ended about 2 weeks ago. haha.

im feeling not so accomplished today!
i did not complete my interior design homework and forbid my teacher to access my work and my brain cells did not function well while we were supposed to have a descriptive passage for our living room design. ouh, im really slow in autocad(missing one lesson isnt that beneficial i realised)
and i was late for class. for your information, 5 minutes late could be deemed as absent. so i would consider not attending class if im 17 minutes late but my conscience told me to better. i still cant comprehend why lecturers need to mark our attendance since its really rhetorical as our attendance is all based on the installed tapping system. and, the list goes on.

but on a lighter note,
we celebrated claudia's one day belated birthday with a cylindrical caramel cake and bill was obviously out to finish the whole entire cake if we werent around. and saying how far his hand can reach as long theres food. haha, think hello panda (: i dont know why but the resemblance bears. hes got a contagious laughter which can fill the whole computer lab.

im in lurve with bourjous eau de gloss in 18 caramel tinted gloss and skin food flash lights crayon, yay for electric blue. i embrace diversity with cool ocean coloured eyes with pale lips! and im making a big hint here! if not, im so gonna get it! as soon as possible and hopefully, tomorrow (:

skinny scandal! i wish i may, i wish i might! but not obsessed with super thin runway girls who are bring glorified for being just skin and bones. its just really appalled to see how some girls end up with anorexia. all i can say its SHAME ON YOU. its sad to see the adverse effects this obsession is having on society.i personally believe models should portray a healthier womanly shape, perharps like the Victoria's Secrets models who still have curves and know how to flaunt them! size is just another way of categorising clothes! skinny models its just too alien for me to even relate to. well, i suppose stick-thin models need to put some bread on the table(even if they never eat it!) i conclude im against GIRLS TRYING TO BE STICK-THIN but not trying to revolt!
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met someone special after school, and brightened up my day despite my prior immense disappointment in myself(:
but im extremely apologetic regarding what happened. but that trip down was worth it, right? i owe you one anyhow.
love is happiness. :D
love is beautiful
and we need to realise, it's there.
love really is what makes life worthwhile.
it's not our achievements, that determine who we are.
it's our love that speaks about us.

2007-08-02T12:27:00.001-07:00

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN ONE GETS TOO BORED AND PRE HIGHNESS BEFORE DAYBREAK! (:

2007-08-01T11:56:00.000-07:00

i want the plaid tunic from F21! with that matching elastic patent belt. gasp! its been a long time since ive shopped ever since i declare bankrupt when i terminated my nets to cease my over-expenditure. haha. but the peculiar thing is, when youre broke, everything on the rail really evokes your interest but when youre satiated with loads of cash in your pocket, nothing appeals to you at all. human nature: ironic. haha. its queer, yes. this is gna be such a random post about anything and everything under the sun. firstly, ive admitted to someone about something which i never thought in my life i would do it cus hes a great pal to me (: haha. well, i wonder what if everything happens and coincides and the right time. end result? haha. no time for analysis, im mugging real hard. ive been doing 1 technical drawing piece, 5 interior sketches, measurement sketches for point-of-purchase for exhibition design class tmr. and im sucking on ice lolly to keep myself awake at 4am. my dad have left the house for work and im here slacking away instead of doing my work. but pardon me, im really shagged after being in school ever since 11am till 10pm having lessons and project works. kelly and me were really stressed out but the measurements of the box. seems easy but its really tedious. anyway, thanks to zhisheng(sorry for mis spelling is just now, my apologise) who have been accompanying all the way till now which the clock says 4.41am and i think im seriously blabbering and i think right now, i have dementia cus i cant even remember his name while hes keeping me awake all these few hours. thank god for it.haha. and you stupid crab, stop mentioning im a sucky sotong and im blur. BRR! i think i have the habit of acting blur (: and okay, enough. i got to get back to my cardboard measurements. thank goodness i didnt say cupboard (: it shows im still 50% awake. haha. and i realised i have nice classmates. haha, how random but yes (:JOYCELYN LOVES YOU ALLL ALLLLLL!

TAY WEESIANG! SINCE I HAVENT BEEN MENTIONING YOUR NAME. HERE YOU GO! (:

2007-07-27T23:14:00.000-07:00

I HEART THE ROSES! thank you seksay! (:
lubchoo!

2007-07-26T09:11:00.000-07:00

youre my sugar rush dum-dumm

school's really hectic. with project deadlines to meet, tight ones in fact which leave me thinking its pretty difficult to manage. damn, i think im gna be fraught with hardship, financially and emotionally ]: ohwell, its something i should at least expect when i get into this course. interior/exhibition is REALLY tough! no joke i swear. but i cant wait for internship at the end of year two. and degree course at the end of year three. or more like, i cant wait to go overseas for my degree! haha. im getting excited with all thoughts of it.

short and sweet, theres still lots of work piling up waiting for me to complete it. ha, goodnight loves.

2007-07-24T08:58:00.000-07:00

me and yp have a lose weight plan:
go jogging on 1 3 5
AND I REALLY NEED TO GET RID OF MY FATS! 5kg! im aiming towards that! (:

school just started! monday lesson really sucks. 4-10pm!
monday night + computer lab lesson + lights off during lesson time = SLEEPING MOOD!
mhmm. oohyes, theres this internship programme by nafa students on teevee! how cool!
ohhh. farid and me are gna appeal for a dance club in nafa tmr! so happy!

okay, nothing much. just about it.
and my dear boy, the email was jst so sweet.
i mean, short and really sweet (:
i love you plenty.

2007-07-18T21:06:00.000-07:00

YOURE MY STRAWBERRY ICE CREAM CUS YOU MAKE ME HAPPY! (:

2007-07-17T10:03:00.000-07:00

ive heard 3 sad stories today but 3 different people. and im starting to reflect if im cherishing those around me or ive been taking them for granted. and heres a little note to each one of my treasured:

thanks for being with me all these years. you guys are the one who taught me so many things and i thank each and everyone of you in one way or another. youre treasured and missed by me (:

aaron,abigail,adeine,alicia,alvin.c,alvin,adam,andy,
andy.t,angelina,angeline.c,angeline,angie,ann,ashley,
bb,benlim,benjy,bernice,brenna,bryan,candice,
cecilia,ceciliabnj,chantel,cm,cheryl,chris,christabel,
chweeseng,clarissa,connie.L,connie,cyndi,charmaineL,
charmaine,charmaine,corrieC,darren,debbie,debbie.s,
deric,dy,edmund,edrea,elizabethL,elizabeth,eugene,
elaine,enxin,enqi,ewin,farid,gab,gary,grace,genL,gen,
georgina,germaine,gina,hasyim,hazel,helena,hidayah,
hs,ivana,izzad,isaiah,jandi,janetG,janet,jayne,jennifer,
jh,jx,jiayi,jh,jiun,joanne,joel,john,jolin,jolyn,jonathan,
joy,ju,kalai,karen,kelvin Z,kelvin,kelvin.K,kimie,ky,
laxmi,leeann,lina bnj,lina,lz,lynn L,Lynn,mardy,
marianne,mas,melvin,mervyn,michelle L,michelle,
mikki,mj,mis,monica,nicoleS,nicole,noelD,noel,norie,
olivia,onan,oscar,patricia,pauline,pearlyn,pz,ph,pris,
qi,rachel,richelle,ronald,ronnie,rj,rustini,sarb,salman,
sam T,sam C, samA,sartha,saras,samuel,serene,
shamini,shai,shaun,shawna,sherry,shihan,shirlee,sp,
sisi,stacy,stanley,tat,taufiq,terren,terri,trudy,tiz,tng,
valencia,van,veronica,victoria,vincent,ws,wq,wendy,
wilson C, wilson S, wilson O,yp,yili,yj,yk,yq,yl,zeenat,zh

i hope i didnt miss anyone out.
LOVE YOU GUYS TO BITS!

2007-07-16T02:43:00.001-07:00

its more than emotional kick;
suddenly you like yourself more than you have never before.

2007-07-15T12:46:00.000-07:00

I want that Abercrombie & Fitch tee, ruby red slippers! and im craving for macaroni & cheese and lemonade!
haha. i feel extremely whacky today. lol.
maybe its time for some blog revamp? haha. ive updated my friendster pictures! yes, i know im such a camwhore. but GIRLS ARE CAMWHORE BY NATURE. guys even (: you cant blame me, yes? haha.
headed to ws house in the morning and had breakfast at ljs where this little kid kept ringing the bell causing the worker to have keep repeating "thank you" haha. im sure they know how to make their day. haha.
okay. ive met his mom and his very hospitable 5 DOGS! haha. shes a pretty and easy going lady. no qualms about that. lol. i mean. SHES REALLY PRETTY, YOU KNOW! shes got really good features. and i shall not continue in case someone gets too egoistic saying "ohh..it in the genes.. thts why..." haha. you get the drift :|

mhmm. feeling: bittersweet symphony. have you ever been down?
i guess there are so many different incidences that took place in jst a short year. and i never did i expect that these will be part and parcel of my life journey. but i really gotta thank you for once the excruciating experience because they taught me to see a person in a wiser aspect. and
for now, im thankful for someone new,
thanks for being such a sweetheart.

Call me W Whistle 'cause I can't speak, baby

2007-07-15T10:50:00.000-07:00

needless to explain. a picture speaks a thousand words.

2007-07-13T11:45:00.000-07:00

D.A.N.C.E Do the dance, the way you move is a mystery.

dear __,
im extremely apologetic for the endless emotional talk today but i really gotta thank you for your genuine sincerity. letting it out might not be bad thing, at least i have a whole new perception of you right now, in a positive way. thanks for being there when though im not at least aware. but whatever it is, i thank god for you right now (:

love.

a random peekture of farid and me during dance session yesterday. hah. we look like kids in despair.

2007-07-11T11:13:00.000-07:00

back from a hiatus for several days. not busy at all this week. maybe lazy would be a more appropriate word in this context :| tmr's my last day at work in bnj and im doing opening with shawna. yes, shes such a lovely girl who i can tease at and never gets angry. haha. hopefully, my school timetable isnt too stressful for me to handle so i can go back to work. vincent is urging us so badly to go back at least twice a month. lets see if i can commit first before making any promises. haha.
thankfully, ive got into the course i want, and poor kimie needs to appeal. i dont know why she cant get into it when we have the same GPA! this is so unfair for her. maybe some thanks to certain teacher whom i shall not name.

oh! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOKKIE. haha. though i dont know you very well but here you go (:

had bbq yesterday with some of bnj people and others. it was quite fine. haha. i didnt even eat alot. or rather, i only had a chicken wing and lots of bbqed marshmallows, THEYRE <3!>random stuff.

1.I CANT STAND PEOPLE WHO HAVE BULLET PROOF SKIN. and in other words, thick skinned people. you dont have to acknowledge praises. not that its a bad thing, but you dont have to tell the world, just keep it to yourself. be humble so people would love you more instead of getting people to love you by posting praises on yourself. shivers-

2.GOODLUCK! CM for your interview. peace with bnj (: we are the scoopers gang. haha.

3.HEART LEFT BNJ. but shes gna visit us tmr! and yes, my wallet is with you babe. haha. and she gave everyone a little present but i guess mine was the one with most hearts. as she stated. (: SO CHUMMY! i bet vincent cant take that level. LOL.

4.so many "how" in my mind. so now, HOW?

5.ann, i miss you like mad. meet up soon. its been a few weeks since ive seen you, isit? i dont know but it definately feels like donkey years. so many things to update you on! (:

6.dear yp. sorry about sat. i promise you a meetup! pinky dinky!

7. you know who you are. (: but dont expect a message for you! HAHAHA. in any case, you get your massive ego/pride going agn. i know a leo's like that, but its no excuse (: dont miss me yes!

8. THINK SIMPLE.

peaceout.

2007-06-29T04:26:00.000-07:00

yes im currently working and as instructed by a certain mr someone, i shall update since im proud to know that ive visitors yes (:

okay, here you go, UPDATED.

tmr's farid dance competition. i cant wait! see techniQues. yes, theyre gna win! (: with me around, theyre gna gna gna. okay. byeboos/

2007-06-24T07:38:00.000-07:00

Tanjong Rhu Dance Performance!

overall as a group was fine but i made blunders. i practically ruin through bungling or stupidity by chosing not to fall and roll(one of the steps) well, the stage's definately small.or should i use TINY! and how am i supposed to drop down? i dont feel good after the performance and furthermore we are paid. and so, in other words, we have to do a good job. i think i lack self confidence in many ways. really. sigh. yes becomes no, now.

extreme candid shot.

dhoby ghaut.

shai gave us a ride in mardy's car to vivo. and apparently, its the most princess car ive ever seen. here you go. they actually DIY this. farid, shai and mardy. i think they make a really good family (: (heh)

had yoghurt ice blended while farid had some red bean ice dessert at kim gary vivo. was quite nice but i couldnt finish my drink. haha. it gives you brainfreeze! (: and f.y.i i was so busy yesterday that i forgot to take my three meals. YES! or you could say, im miss scatterbrain :D i think anyone close to me can vouch for this and im so not proud of it! haha.
watched oceans thirteen and i dont think its really nice. i guess it would be nice as a novel instead of screening it in theatres. in my opinion,the plot just dont go well with the images. and we were deadbeat after dance. so we nearly fell asleep inside the theatre. goodness gracious.
went on a half an hour spree after the movie. bought a white shorts from pull & bear! LOVE IT! haha. 50bucks is worth the price okehh! and tmr im gna get a top from there! haha. i was on a tight budget today yes!

haha. random peekshures! (:
cm's chocolate fudge coated hand. yes, i did them! HAHA. i know im evil! shuts. but come on! (: its jst having fun!

and edmund's dog looks helluva adorable with shrek's ears.

& i like my eyes here! haha its a rare case so let me be ego for once! haha!

me and cm at cheers @ kembangan

life is only meaningful when you find what belongs to your own world.

2007-06-22T11:55:00.000-07:00

youre making me really confused.

2007-06-20T23:55:00.000-07:00

your moment of indecisiveness tolls my longterm excruciating pain.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you're far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
When every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

2007-06-19T01:04:00.001-07:00

took this from shihan's blog. click on it to enlarge. it really happens to me, design student!

2007-06-19T00:29:00.001-07:00

i felt bad about what happened yesterday. im sorry mr manager. i know it was an act of irresponsiblity and it was being unfair to you. and im extremely sorry for forgetting to find replacements cus of certain distractions. i never felt good yesterday after being scolded. but im truely apologetic. once agn, sorry. but i never agreed with one thing you said that i should prioritise my work instead of dance. i have organize my time according to its priority. furthermore, dance is more important to me than work. being a scooper isnt my career.

work was quite enjoyable with lina except that shes busy most of the time checking the stocks. it was my first time working with her. and i felt quite comfortable. at least we have topics in common to talk about. haha. shes in multimedia design by the way. haha. so i guess, its the designers' talk. LOL. anyhoos, shes a nice girl, no doubt. haha. but unlike me, shes doesnt have a sweet tooth! had to rush for another job after that at 6pm. was really shagged at the end of the day. but the messages kept me smiling. i think people think im crazy when im smiling while walking but ohbotherdash when youre happy. somehow, it was quite a funny conversation between me and my friend. the nonsense and lame stuff. cough.

it was a bad day. yes. monday blues, no? BLACK.
i made mistakes in counting the money at the end of the day. guess im really tired out.

f.y.i, my organizer is packed. my days are almost filled up. maybe a day to relax on friday.

tuesday - dance prac.
wednesday - dance prac.
thursday - dance prac.
friday - REST DAY
saturday - rehearsal
sunday - performance then might have work too? YES.

& im finding dancers for a competition on 4th AUG at toa payoh central cc.
do let me know if youre interested.
so far its only farid, shihan and me (:
at least 3 more dancers pretty please.

okay. i promise myself. im not gonna spend my next in coming pay on more than 2 pieces of clothes.
im gna sign up for contemporary dancing/lyrical jazz/modern dance. yes, its either(:
stop me from spending my friends!

anyhoos! joycelyn loves you!

2007-06-17T09:50:00.000-07:00

adexyuu oboe says:
you r very cheerful
adexyuu oboe says:
i like your attitude
adexyuu oboe says:
very sad to not be able to chat more with ya durin the trip

THIS REALLY MOTIVATED ME
thanks monica! (:

2007-06-11T21:30:00.000-07:00

met up with these guys for like 1/2 yesterday before going to work! haha. anyhoos. so nice of them! my belated birthday gifts. nono, no sarcasm intended. i mean, REALLY NICE! :D
OMG! thanks elaine for the zara top! ITS LOVE :D yay!
adam and dex. you guys rock mann! haha. love the present much! its so pretty! thanks for the effort and everything. love you sunshine pals!
eugene. YOU ARE CRAZY. that present cost a BOMB. but i really love it like mad mad mad mad! haha.
yk! thanks for the little gift! dont worry! its the thoughts and sincerity that counts. we know youre broke! but still, your gift is still a precious little thing to me! (:

THANKS GUYS. LOVE LOVE!

2007-06-08T10:26:00.001-07:00

THANKS JONATHAN LIM!
im a friggin sims addict!

2007-06-07T22:45:00.000-07:00

OMGGGGGGGG. SCREAMS!

i think my mom gave the clothes inside the paper bag away! i still want it! ITS THE NEWEST CLOTHES I HAVE! and she didnt ask my permission! or rather prolly she thought that it was clothes i didnt want but still, SHE SHOULD HAVE ASKED ME FIRST!

you know how much everything inside cost!!!
2 forever 21 pieces $101
1 bikini $70
1 topshop top $43
1 zara top $30
1 tube $32
1 phuture london dress $129
fcuk top $89

and i swear theres more. but jst based on this? its almost $500!

)))))))))))))))))))))):

MOMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

2007-06-06T12:01:00.000-07:00

i need a shopping list, so desperately. feel like clearing my wardrobe and own new clothings. or should i sell them all to get the money to buy new dresses! mhmm! (:
i want a knee length high waist skirt! haha! im starting to see raised eyebrows. you know why cm. lol & i want a lot alot of teeshirts and accessories! but most importantly, i need to shed the lard off before i look nice in anything (: and holy crap, my bank account is ___.

by the way! ive gt a job. this sunday for an anlene marathon event. its jst an hour job which pays me 40bucks! ann's going too! which means, i have to rush for my dance competition which is taking place an hr later at sengkang community centre. farid says its a closed door audition. it sounds kind of stressful. reminds me of like singapore idols and stuff. haha. its called dance xplosion 2, f.y.i (: mhmm. but i'll never think of taking a break from dancing. show's on 24th and i wonder whats up next. maybe during school days. i shall stop joining competitions and instead, enrol for contemp/modern dance classes and continue going for hiphop (:

ive signed up for driving! my basic theory test is on the 8th of august. totally anticipating for it so i can start going for practical lessons after that! (: its private by the way. lol. im gna self study and excel for my highway code yes! HAHA! cant wait cant wait cant wait to drive!

oh, and i want a popsicle now! (:
& make me smile with glee

HAPPY ONE YEAR OF FRIENDSHIP (& MORE), DEAR ED!

2007-06-06T10:18:00.000-07:00

THANKS FARID AND HELENA FOR THIS BIRTHDAY GIFT! i love this! but i need to get sims 2 deluxe first ): unfortunately, yes. it cost like 50+bucks. omagosh! HAHA YOU KNOW WHO! IM SO GNA GET MY SIMS 2 ANYWAY! (:

2007-06-04T10:20:00.000-07:00

helloo darlings!

im back to hk at 12sharp! so its like, EXACTLY ON 4TH JUNE WHICH IS MY BIRTHDAY! HOW COOL EH! haha! anyway, picture are uploaded! go view them!

first day - we did nothing much. rested in the hotel rooms then went to ladies st for night market shopping! only bought ann a bag! haha! (:

second day - SUPER FUN! disneyland is the bomb man! consist of the USA st, piratelands, tomorrowland, fantasyland. the technology is all soo. omg. surreal mann! and everything which is fake seems so real (eg, fire, elephants, hippos, whirlpools, human structure) i dont know. everything. i love the 3d max! (: mickey and donald duck thing! haha. i mean, wear the specs and everything appears 3d in front of you. even aladdin. as if youre flying with with them on the mat! haha its really cool. even my mom was pretty much amazed! haha. the usa st were all so. URGH. so usa. so cool! haha. the scenery is so nice(: the items sold there were so magnificent too! adorableeee. my bro bought a keychain back.lol. we took a mtr(singapore: mrt. which the insides are quite similar) back to our hotel then night out shopping agn! this time round, only my sister bought a paul frank watch! its pretty! anyway, you have to experience disneyland when youre in hk. you have to go there to feel the fun man! haha. by the way thing, its not that childish la. it amazes me alot alright! :D

third day - took a MTR then the KCR to shenzhen. shopped at luo hu commercial centre? shopping centre? something like that. cant really remember the name tho. its really competitive inside, the business i meant. they literally pull you! and i was pissed! and i was swearing that the next person who pulls me is so gna get it from me cus i was already so frustrated! soo lucky, no one did that anymore. haha. luckilyyy! and bargaining all is really fun! i really slash prices! bought a genuine leather bag for only 54! haha it was 130 initially! haha. who cares! they pull you back anyway, definately, FOR SURE. 100%. the bought two D&G bags for 130 each only! haha. was 300+ i think!bought presents there back also! lol. FUN! bargaining is good for brains yea! HAHA. i concluded that (:back to hotel after that! went to have macs and desserts! back to hotel then.

fourth day - check out was at 12pm. left our luggages at the hotel then went to have dimsum at a restaurant. its so cheap! its only about 7+bucks for each of us? lol. and its considered a good restaurant! then to gala place to shop and some other shopping centre. had some fermented milk chocolate dessert. i dont know how you call that exactly but ive never seen it in singapore. by the way, hk have really nice desserts which ive never find in here in singapore! and their desserts are more expensive than their normal meals like noodles, rice, etc. then back to hotel, took a bus to airport.

reached singapore 12 sharp! yuhoo! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! (: LOVELOVE

if i were to go back, its definately for the disneyland and desserts.brr! (: but ultimately, shopping there isnt cheap. why buy there when i can get it in singapore as well for almost about the same price! ): brr. bangkok's better for shopping yea! wna go there AGN! (: hope a japan or taiwan trip would come up next.

peace out.

2007-06-04T09:33:00.000-07:00

THANKS FOR WISHING ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (:
candice
joy
salman
karen
terren
gary
farid
louis
jianghan
samuel
jx
edmund
cm
ronald
peizhi
hazel
christine
edrea
cecilia
vincent
serene
joanne
enqi
ann
bernice
debbie
genevieve
angie
adeline
pearlyn
cecilia
yj
angie
shirlee
ju
connie
taufiq
ivana
sherry
shihan
rachel
simone
mas
yanpeng
joanathan
christopher
jiayi
marianne
leo
wendy
weisiang
alvin
angie
ignasia
wenqing
nora
hweeling
angie-rp
elizabeth
karen
trudy
wilson
izzad
benjy
(hope i didnt miss out anyone)

(: thanks and love!
and special thanks to
EDMUND AND CM FOR: surprising me at my doorsteps with my present and favourite flowers!

&HAZEL, CHRISTINE, TANGYUAN AND SERENE! FOR: being real sweethearts for this on-the-spot surprise!

AND VINCENT FOR: this pull and bear razor! i dont wear sleeveless but i still love this sesame street thingie! its adorable!(:

weiheyhey! im still waiting for PRESENTS. AHEMS! HAHA YOU KNW WHOOO!

so headed off to vivo! had marche! (: yum pasta.!
played at the water area. omg fun. we were pretty much drenched after that! haha. ed and cm had to walk one leg bare footed? cus i took out one side of their shoes. and threw it into the water haha! STINKY TOES! anyway, they were the ones who tried to throw me into the water first! SO AINT MY FAULT. a tit for a tat yea? anyway!, AFTERMATH OF OUR CRAZINESS! HAHA. helluva fun! loved it.
love to everyone who made my birthday enjoyable. loveloveloveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! (:
peaceout

2007-05-28T09:13:00.000-07:00

im currently in love with "would you be there" by redwan ali. yes, hes a local. and he doesnt have any albums so some of you guys might have no idea who he is.but i love his songs. its so amazingly nice. anyway. while i was searching it, i found it on someone's blog. and ive asked cm to record it down for me using his mic. FINALLY. I GOT IT. it was the last episode of the chinese serials today. mars vs venus.

If I were blue, would you be there for me,

And whisper in my ears that's okay.

Would you stand by me,

Let me hold you tight,

And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,

And touch my lips with tender love and care.

Would you die for me,

Would you run with me,

And never look back.

Would you be there to love, to be with me ?

Would you swear that your love is always true ?

Would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away ?

Would you be there to love, to be with me ?

Would you swear that your love is always true ?

Would you say that you'll always be the one, to take my breath away ?

Would you be there ..

SWEET!

2007-05-27T11:06:00.001-07:00

i love this peekshure of my house! i guess its the contrasting colour of yellow and sand. soo warm, i like!

2007-05-25T09:57:00.000-07:00

There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I’m stubborn in the things I believe
’cause maybe there’s another plan
One I still can’t see
A little surprise, like Your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see
everything in its time.

the 2 hours left alone made me think a lot. and made me want to tear alot.

2007-05-24T10:37:00.000-07:00

i feel like composing a song, suddenly.
haha. but seems like my love and passion for guitar is slowly dying off. and im getting a little rusty. ohwells. maybe dance is taking up too much of my time.
theres a public show on the 24th. and we're paid for this dance performance. should i or should i not go? its an exposure, a chance. mhmm. i'll consider, farid! (:

2007-05-23T02:06:00.000-07:00

hey darlings!
farid's and brenna's birthday peekshures have been uploaded into my visuals! nothing much but no harm checking it out! (:

supposed to have dance sessions but im feeling not too good. aching body with flu. urgh. it totally spoils my day. had salmon with swedish meatball gravy with it. it taste goddamn perfect. haha. thanks to my mom who came up with this weird idea. but ingenious, indeed. mom made tropical jellies for us too! yay. we topped it with chunky monkey ice cream! awww. how nice!
and..*drumrolls* .....................

bad news to american pie and dublin mudslide bnj ice cream lovers! its going to the graveyard already! ): i will definately miss my dublin mudslide but on a lighter note, they have it in pints! so it isnt that bad! jst that i cant steal it from the dipcase anymore? haha. i think they have new flavours coming up. i shall be more discreet about it first! if youre smart enough, theres something to do with _o_ _ _ _ t. im not too sure either actually. haha! but i think so yea! (: haha.

saturday's edmund's and dance crew's night. lets wish him all the best. may they burn the floor of PSC night. and get the championship! haha. so he'll have 500bucks. guess i'll be in good deal then! HAAH. he better treat us to good food! (:

i jst want to face the day, forget about the woes of yesterday.

2007-05-21T10:20:00.000-07:00

joycelyn is a very happy girl! YAYYYYY.

2007-05-20T11:03:00.000-07:00

DANCE! DANCE! DANCE!
haha immmmm so into a dancing mood now.
mhmm. renovate the house in ten years time. better pray i can have a perfect dance floor with big mirrors in an air conditioned room with stereos all. wah. the neighbours would kill me and i would have to entertain cops knocking on my door once every week. lol. a dream that will never come true, unfortunately.
OHYES.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARID!

you'll be seeing me tmr. dont miss me huh! and we can get crazy together dancing! (: (: (:
extremely fun all! haha.

im listing down all the items i wish to get once i get my pay

little miss bossy tee from NUM.
black vintage bag from guess.
big brown bag from any random place.
pretty colorful dress from topshop.
platforms from aldo.
a yoga pants for dance.
white shorts.

SEXY! im so greedyyyyyyyyy! actually not, its always paid using my hard earned money please! haha.

okay replies to my tag:
dex, im fine, really. thanks for your concern.im good without him. with him around only makes my life more miserable. and its much worse than you think. without a doubt, im still thinking about him. but its getting lesser. and i hope that this guy wouldnt exist in my life ever agn. im moving on great and im getting happier each day. i believe what goes around comes around! i dont need a man! to ruin my life and torture me mentally (: cheers.

haha. im good without you.

Is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you, baby
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

and to alicia,
forget about him. since hes so not worth it, why go for cheapskate stuff? youre worth so much more than you think. youre priceless yourself. go for someone who knows how to appreciate you and the things you do. but meanwhile, studies are important too babe. know your priorities. dont let a guy ruin your emotional life, jst like mine. you'll get to regret it like f*** one day. promise me, you'll dry your tears and put a cheery smile across. i love you babe.

not forgetting elaine,
dont stress yourself out. thanks for being so protective of me always and in turn, others misunderstand you. thanks for sacrificing so much as a friend. i love you too(:

life is so fragile, sigh.

2007-05-19T05:01:00.000-07:00

im counting down towards the dance competition. brr. 3 more weeks! myriad of feelings all. i dont know why! maybe lack of self confidence! gah. and i have to choreograph the dance for ijtp flaunt with shai. i hope we can use lovestoned! im so addicted. its my ecstacy GOSH.

ohoh! two random stuff: I WANT THAT FAMILY GUY TEE! its so adorable. haha. HMV sells it. yaberr! &
i dyed my hair. it looks red, blonde and er, brown. lol! waiting for my ashgreen highlight next week! its gna look so cool! HAHA!

anyway, we had a surprise birthday celebration for farid at the botanics. i think farid was really striked unexpectedly! nice breezy place. we had a picnic! and there were a massive amount of tidbits! it looks like some funfair thing. haha. his sister(mardy) was really nice. i mean, my siblings would never do that for me man! they blindfolded him all the way there and prepared sandwiches, sausages, fried noodles, cakes, all. so sweet of her! i dont know how mardy and shai did it! preparing all the food without farid's awareness at all. gasp.played twister and it was goddamn funny. it looks like theyre having some mass orgy or somewhat! i mean, THE GUYS. helloooo! imagine guys topping one on top of the other. you can almost imagine it. right. anyhoos, photos would be uploaded into the visuals once i have them! (:

bahh. i cant have the shoot tmr cus ive work! im only free on wednesday!
nownow, what should i get for my dear farid.actual birthdate is on mon, 21st!

love.

2007-05-18T09:49:00.001-07:00

You Are The Godfather Ice Cream

Someone crosses you, and they'll end up with a scoop of this in their bed

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

2007-05-18T09:35:00.000-07:00

im addicted to lovestoned! haha. okay that was random stuff
dancing makes me ache like mad cus ive to remember all the steps by june! if not, im super screwed! damnit.
but farid was a really nice kid to teach me the steps. one to one. i really owe him one! thanks dude. it was really nice of him to come all the way down frmo yishun when he was gaming. lol. learnt so much from him. and his stupid funny face -smirks as we krump. HAHA. totally hilarious! omagoshhhh!
bought beef cheese fries from carls jr. smells a little like malay food, somehow. anyway, it was nice. and that was my dinner! saw gen today with her boyfriend! nice. toured a little around vivo before heading to smu for dance practices! heh!
mom's back from cruise. bought lots of cuttlefish back. my love! heh.
i gotta rest my aching body!
peace out world.

2007-05-15T09:44:00.000-07:00

back into pavement-walking-thing for a SHORT while. under some contract list. gah. life's pretty hectic though.finally my mom's off to KL tmr. lets find some fun then (: i was thinking of dex&clique. but i guess their pretty tired after school and all! maybe lets switch to some dance sessions tmr! :D

-
Somebody, somebody left your heart in the cold

2007-05-12T07:41:00.000-07:00

hellloooo! lets have some updates on bnj!

kelvin and vincent made the cake for brenna! dublin mudslide with chocchip cookiedough! it was her 19th birthday! mhmm. fun. veryy funn. i drew a card for her with everyones signature on it. and she had other presents from other scoopers too! (: anyway, that day was real fun. like how we sabo cm with his gay smses all. haha. edrea and me were laughing till our side hurts. silly antics all. lol. the best part was working with edrea! being thick skinned all. haha. and poor kelvin had to clean the no-name tree. he wasnt working on that day but he arrived at bnj the same time as us! haha. no idea why but anyhoos. vincent didnt allow him to do any chores and kept forcing him to study by emphasizing that studies are priorities! haha. lol. and if he "trespasses" into the counter, we will call the security! funny. but he kept insisting that he wanted to help. ohwells! haha. seriously, i kinda hate working in vivo bnj quite a bit inititally and i felt stressful with vincent around till i wanted to resign and apply at happy people co. but now on second thoughts, i think its getting really fun. and i realised vincent is a nice guy. so i doubt i'll be quitting (: ohyea. and my poor edrea heart has totally lost her voice!

my next rest day would be next wed! grr long way to go. but upon hearing i get paid 70bucks on sundays makes me smile with glee. ooh, my blog title fits well into this scenario! well, after working for so long, at least something's paid off (:

ohyes. and i realised i can strike off one of the wishes on the desires list now! dear hk! im totally anticpating!

laters!

2007-05-03T06:27:00.000-07:00

TO HELL WITH J JAYAKRISHNA.(SOME FUCKING CUSTOMER)
SO WHAT IF YOURE A FUCKING PERMANENT RESIDENT OF SINGAPORE WITH A FUCKING BLUE IC? AFTERALL YOURE FROM INDIA? INDIANAAA. NOT THAT IM BEING FUCKING MEAN TO INDIANS. BUT PLEASE RESPECT US. AND WHATS WRONG WITH YOU. YOUVE GOT YOUR BLOOODY FUCKING LUGGAGE ALREADY. PLEASE MIND YOUR OWN FUCKING ETIQUETTE INSTEAD.

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK. GO AND FUCK THE FUCKING WALL INSTEAD OF FUCKING SHOUTING AT ME.

2007-05-03T00:48:00.000-07:00

peeeeepps! sorry! have been engaging in work! my leisure time has been forfeited and that gives me a reason to grumble - pouts.
my next and only free day is on next wed for this fortnight!
LETS HIGHLIGHT THE IMPT STUFF INSTEAD HEH!
taman warisan dance performance with techniQues/hady mirza and taufiq bautista. tho im not a fan of them but its always nice to take peektures with star singers! haha. thanks mommy daddy kelvin edmund ann jx abi and tiff for your support! cm and i really appreciate it when you guys come and watch us perform! altho abi and tiff didnt get to watch live cus they couldnt find the place, i showed them the video instead! haha. it was a zapin-hiphop performance. zapin-aggressive malay dance. the music used was some traditional malay music. it was cooool stuff kay! haha. anyway, pics are uploaded. check my visuals for updates! and now im really pouting over the lvl up dance competition in june! i really want to participate but i reckon that my parents wont be too happy about it since my schedule is already taking up alot of our "family bond"
OH YES! im so gonna get this OCBC debit card! its orange and pretty! haha i can use it for online shopping. prays hard (:

working in a service line is such a ___.
customers. nasty. customers. nasty. customers. nasty.you can almost link them up AS EASILY AS ABC. maybe one day i should switch to a peaceful lifestyle feeding livestocks on a vast farm all. haha. sounds so mawkishly sentimental. CHEESYYYYYY C:

haha. okayyy. ima workin' workin' workin' my guts out. laters buhbyeess.

ME WNA WORK WITH EDREA TOO! ohh. you can consider that a highlight too!

2007-04-19T00:02:00.000-07:00

giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back
dont expect love in return; jst wait for it to grow in their hearts.
but if it doesnt, be content it grew in yours.
it only takes a minute to get a crush on someone
an hour to like someone
and a day to love someone
but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

2007-04-14T10:02:00.001-07:00

Many of us live our lives running behind time, but we only reach it when we
die of a heart attack or in a car accident rushing to be on time. Others
are so anxious of living the future that they forget to live the present,
which is the only time that truly exists. We all have equal time throughout
the world. No one has more or less. The difference lies in how each one of
us does with our time. We need to live each moment.

2007-04-14T09:42:00.000-07:00

Life always give you back what you give out
Life is a mirror of your action

your life is not a coincidence but a mirror of your own doings

ONAN! haha. he came to bnj today! i gave him ultra big scoop of ice cream! must thank me! he ordered a mix and match! (: but i felt quite bad cus im like not allowed to give my friends discount? i know nothing about all these yet! haha. in time to come i guess. scooping was quite fun today cus i got exposed to many new stuff like banana fudge royal or something which ive never done before and some others on the menu.
ooh. this world is small. i kinda realised everyone i know is connected. YES, 99.99% of the people i know! i dont know why these coincidences but it always happen! haha.
working with edrea is really super fun! we kept making fun of the chairs and all. i mean, you know. the cow utter all. hehheh! we sound so cheeky. and can you believe one chair cost 1k? like WTH! i dont believe. not like its made of gold or what yea know. its normal. really normal. and the damn cow cost 5k. and the aeroplane 3. zxzxzxzxz. this could go on and on.
but we caught the last train anyway! quite lucky! haha. saw ed cm and ann at dhoby mrt. they were there waiting for last train too. such coincidence as well! haha (:

anyway! im seeing edrea on monday! im missing her already! ):

2007-04-13T10:25:00.000-07:00

dinner at waraku with trudy, ann, cm and ed. was quite nice! but aint filling enough! bill came up to around 96bucks.
we had a hard time finding waraku! haha theres this pretty cute girl working there and i caught cm staring at her! HAHA.
okay, im starting to feel lethargic about blogging. so i intend to keep this short and sweet (:
my voice is still ____.
and ed keeps laughing at it. DAMN YOU!
supper at v tea room.
had irish cream bailey liquer cake and 2pots of lavender earl grey tea. 38bucks. but it was kickass. trust me. expensive but definately worth the money. its at esplanade. so for those who havent try it yet, GOOO! its a must! its IRRESISTABLE! haha.
sat at the riverside till 12am. starting to hear people singing birthday song! haha. happy birthday to whoever-you-are! im jst joining in the crowd! haha. ed and cm started shouting that they love singapore? so off track please. national day? i bet youre not that patriotic huh.
cabbed home after that. the cabs took quite long to come tho. anyhoos, home sweet home after that. yay! ive good hair day today! OHYES. haha cm and ed, treasure your very few times of seeing me wearing something long! yes, i wore a long skirt today, cant believe it. those wrap-rounds. haha. bought it from bangkok one year back and this is my first time wearing it in singapore! lol. yes, weather is humid here. i like it short and comfy!

i realised ive spent A BOMB on FOOD this week.
tue: the french stall, 60.
wed: fosters, 125. al dente, 70.
fri: waraku, 95. v tea room, 38
of cus those arent my cost alone! haha. with those i ate with. mhmm. we spent like 388 on food for 3 days! KILLER!

and dear edrea, i miss working with you too! and i hope we can know more about our daily lives through our blog. anyhoos, im seeing you tmr and YAY! im super happy about it! i know you value this friendship, me too (: till tmr...

laters!